Empezamos

Always hovering in the back of my mind is The Reader.

I find it interesting that most often when I go to write something about myself or something related to what's going on in my life, I have great difficulty organizing enough consecutive coherent thoughts to deem them worthy enough of noting. I need to break through the idea that everything I write has to be some kind of masterpiece to be unraveled years down the road by unsuspecting anthropologists as a shining example of what life must have been like in the early twenty-first century. It needn't be anything more than a reflection of my thoughts as they arise, and a record thereof.

These inhibitions arise from my stubborn search for profundity. I have some kind of block in my mind that occasionally restricts what I say, write, and do as each is subconciously considered, weighed, and dismissed before it even gets a chance to exist. It is as if in trying to be profound in something that I limit my own ability to let these things happen naturally. This isn't the best explanation I can muster, but it will have to do for now. I'm going to make this blog a stream-of-conciousness sort of thing: writing for writing and reflection's sake.

Always hovering in the back of my mind is The Reader - what will (s)he think about me when he/she reads this? Will (s)he be offended, will (s)he laugh, will (s)he be inspired... etc. While it should be a concern, it shouldn't govern my writing style entirely. This blog is as much for my own reflection as for the enjoyment of others.

Where will this thing go? Who knows. I might not have any time to write in it once the semester starts (which could very well be the case), or, rather, I will believe that I don't have the time, when it in all reality is perfectly well available (as is more likely).

Empezamos.

Posted in Thoughts on Friday, 25 January, 2002 (digg this)

Comments

beau wrote:

So the site is looking sweet. I decided to comment on this entry because this is something that I've been trying to say but have not beeen able to put words to. And now I'm trying to think of something profound to say...

Well, I've got less than two weeks before I return to California. I think that I'm going to just enjoy it and not worry about my site until I return. But you're making me excited about getting back to my blog...

Posted on July 29, 2002 12:16 AM